Rania Naim | رانيا نعيم Egyptian || American 🇪🇬🇺🇸
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I discovered something recently, when you talk to people, they confuse you even more but when you talk to God, slowly but surely you begin to find your direction, you begin to feel like things are slowly making sense and somehow things just feel right again.
It’s not an overnight epiphany, it’s not a magic wand that will finally wipe away your confusion, it’s just a small step in the right direction, an idea, a small decision or just a new sense of self-worth or wisdom that makes you feel unstuck and sets you free.
Talk to God if you’re confused about someone, he will either move your heart closer or push you away. Signs will show up, you will hear something about them, you will see a side you haven’t seen before, you will slowly begin to make a decision and you will eventually figure out if that’s the right person for you.
Talk to God if you don’t understand why certain things aren’t happening or why certain blessings are delayed, somehow he will give you reassurance that your patience will pay off, that he is planning something far bigger and greater than what you had hoped for. You will understand, in time, that maybe you weren’t ready to receive what you wanted when you really wanted it, you will understand that the things you wish or pray for change over time. You grow and you realize that what you wished for a year ago is totally different than what you wish for now.
The thing is talking to God doesn’t fix everything overnight, but it gives you the tools and the resources you need to overcome the confusion, overcome the hardships and stay hopeful that better things are coming your way.
Maybe we’re always looking for a quick fix, but quick fixes don’t last, they break easily. Healing takes time. Finding what’s really right for you is a long and tumultuous journey. Miracles take time but they happen and only God can make them happen.
And when you learn how to talk to God, solitude becomes sweeter and somehow you feel safer because you know that there’s nothing you can’t handle. Everything will fall into place. Everything will be okay.
1,6835822 hours ago
When forgetting is the only option you have, I guess that’s what they call the sweet release.
Releasing someone when you’re heart is still full of love.
Releasing someone and wishing them the best, even if it’s not with you.
Releasing someone and forgiving them for all their wrongdoings.
Releasing someone without the juvenile hope that they would come back to you.
Releasing someone and accepting that your paths might not cross again.
Releasing someone when there was so much you wanted to say and so much you wanted to do.
Releasing them because maybe they don’t belong to you after all.
I guess that’s what they call maturity.
Learning to let go of those you want to hold on to.
Learning to accept that their story may not include you.
Learning to love them from a distance.
Accepting that your happy ending may not include them.
I guess that’s what they call faith.
Trusting that the universe will fill that void.
Trusting that God will find a way to replace what you've lost.
Trusting that you can keep going in this journey on your own for a little while longer.
Trusting that something better is on the way.
I guess that’s what they call healing.
Knowing when to detach.
Knowing how to let go.
Being kind to yourself.
Loving again after every heartbreak.
Moving on with no regrets, only lessons.
Picking yourself up again.
Trying to love again.
Proving to yourself time and time again
that no one can truly break you.
2,2377218 January, 2019
I’ll never be satisfied with mediocrity when it comes to love.
I’ll never be satisfied with sweet words only without actions to prove them.
I’ll never be satisfied with a few moments of passion in between a hundred moments of indifference.
I’ll never be satisfied with being loved for a day and being neglected for a week.
I’ll never be satisfied with inconsistent effort or mundane communication.
I’ll never be satisfied with a love that doesn’t inspire to be more loving and more giving.
I don’t want someone who is not excited about love anymore because of how many times they’ve been broken or because they’ve done it all before. I want someone who is still hopeful, someone who is still excited about the little things, someone who still giggles at the thought of us being together.
I want someone who understands that true love heals not hurts. That love is not a game of numbers and caring too much is not an invitation to take someone's heart for granted.
I don’t want someone who uses people as rebounds or treats love as a game of how many more hearts they can break. I don’t want someone who takes feelings lightly or wants a shallow and superficial love. I don’t want someone who thinks emotions are dramatic or wanting more is neediness.
I don’t want someone who doesn’t understand commitment. I don’t want someone selfish with their heart.
I’ll never be satisfied with a heart that’s not all mine.
I’ll never be satisfied with someone who is not invested.
I’ll never be satisfied with someone who is not all in.
Because trust me I’ve tried being with these kinds of people but at the end of the day, I felt empty. My heart wouldn’t let me accept the bits and pieces. My heart wasn’t happy with breadcrumbs. My heart has waited long enough for the real deal and it won’t accept anything less than that.
I’ll never be satisfied with temporary.
I’ll never be satisfied with sometimes.
I’ll never be satisfied with maybes.
My heart has been a fool so many times, but there’s one thing it gets right every single time. It always shuts off and warns me when it’s time to leave if I’m not properly loved. Always.
1,8905714 January, 2019
I’m slowly learning how to love again. I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to believe again. It’s okay to believe that someone finds you adorable and special. It’s okay to believe the sweet words someone tells you instead of trying to find the lies in their words. It’s okay to believe that someone wants you the same way you want them. I’m slowly learning that history doesn’t always repeat itself. That love doesn’t always mean tears, heartbreak and rejection. That for once, a happy ending is right around the corner.
I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to trust again. Trust that you can be enough for someone and they won’t have to look away. Trust that you don’t have to compete for their love and affection because they already know your worth. They already know your value. Trust that sometimes they’re the ones afraid of losing you. Trust that sometimes your biggest fears are theirs too. I’m slowly learning that trust doesn’t always have to be broken and that every now and then a person can promise you the world and actually gives it to you.
I’m slowly learning that its okay to love again. It’s okay to share your heart with someone and show them who you really are. It’s okay to have deep conversations at 3 am in the morning baring your soul without trying to conceal the darkest and most vulnerable sides of you. It’s okay to give. To spread the kindness, love and compassion you’ve been suppressing all these years. It’s okay to take a chance on someone, to hand your heart and your secrets and your innermost feelings to them because they deserve it too. They deserve the kind of love you’ve been missing. They deserve someone to give them their all.
I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to love again without thinking about how or when it will end. I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to believe in love one more time without trying to protect my heart from being broken. It’s okay to trust again that someone can truly love you and stay with you every time you think they’re going to leave. I’m slowly learning that sometimes love stays and it exceeds all your expectations.
1,7957710 January, 2019
The truth about settling for less than what you deserve is that it will always feel like something is missing. Something is incomplete. You’re not the best version of yourself. You don’t look at yourself in the mirror and feel proud. You know that you’re capable of so much more and you know that at the end of the day, this is not what you deserve.
The truth is it will always feel unbalanced. One foot in and one foot out. One day you’re happy and the next day you’re sad. One day you know what to do and the next day you’re lost and confused. You overthink and you overanalyze every single word and every single action because you know that the truth lies in between. You know the truth yet you keep lying to yourself.
The truth is it will always make you question yourself. It will make you question your character, your integrity, your beliefs and the amount of self-love you have. It will make you question why you can’t let go, why you can’t leave, why you can’t do what’s right and why you’re scared of taking a leap faith that could turn it all around. It will make you question why you feel like you don’t deserve the best or why you feel like you don’t deserve everything.
The truth about settling for less than what you deserve is that you won’t be able to do it for long. It will hit you from the moment you wake up till the moment you sleep. It will haunt you every time you fall out of love with yourself. It will be a constant barrier between you and your ultimate happiness.
But the good news is, it will always be temporary. Because eventually, you’ll know your worth and what you truly deserve and you will instinctively reject anything that diminishes your value. Because eventually, you’ll learn not to settle and eventually you will fall in love with yourself again.
1,322266 January, 2019
I hope this is the year where everything changes.
I hope this is the year where you find yourself.
I hope this is the year where you stop being lost and finally take the right turn that leads you to your true path.
I hope this is the year where you take a leap of faith and it changes your life.
I hope this is the year where you get rewarded for all you’ve endured during the past few years.
I hope this is the year where you heal from everything that caused you pain.
I hope this is the year where all the things you’ve been waiting for happen.
I hope this is the year where you dust yourself off and start seeing things clearly again.
I hope this is the year where you get reintroduced to yourself, your potential and your worth.
I hope this is the year where you find the road to your wishes easier to navigate.
I hope this is the year where all your broken pieces come together so you could feel whole again.
I hope this is the year where you find the answers you’ve been looking for.
I hope this is the year where you get the closure you’ve been seeking.
I hope this is the year where you find hope again and renew your faith in life and in yourself.
I hope this is the year where you fall in love with yourself again and release everyone who couldn’t love you.
I hope this is the year where you stand tall and shine again.
I hope this is the year where you find things easily coming together instead of falling apart.
I hope this year is the year to remember.
I hope this is your year.
9555030 December, 2018
In 2019, I’m putting all my faith in God. I’m going to let him guide me without trying to interfere with his plans. I’m not going to keep knocking on the doors he decided to close. I’m not going to rush things anymore because I’ve learned to trust his timing. No matter how much I want things, his timing will always bring the best results. His timing will always make the imperfect situations perfect.
In 2019, I’m following his signs. Without trying to change the direction. Without trying to manipulate what these signs mean. Without trying to follow my own flawed sense of direction. I’m going to truly listen to his answers even if they’re not what I want to hear. I’m going to run to him when I feel lost.
In 2019, I’ll talk to him about my problems. I won’t talk to other people, I won’t keep getting advice from people who are just as confused and lost as I am. I’ll talk to him because he’s the only one who can fix them. He’s the only one who has a real solution. He’s the only one who can truly understand.
In 2019, I’m detaching. Detaching from what’s not meant for me. Detaching from all the expectations I had for myself and people. I’m detaching from trying to make everything work or having control over every single aspect in my life. I’m detaching from my own obsessions and my own demons.
In 2019, I’m trusting him more. Because God knows what’s in my heart. God knows what I need. He doesn’t need reminders. God doesn’t forget. I’m counting on him to make me whole again. I’m done trying to mend everything myself. I’m done trying to pretend like I know what’s best for me when I have the ultimate teacher waiting for me to put all my faith and trust in him. I have the ultimate healer.
In 2019, I’m leading with faith. Faith that I’m right where I’m supposed to be. Faith that the new year will bring more blessings and more positive transformations into my life. Faith that even if things don’t work out the way I want them to, they’re still working out in my favor. Faith that I’ll eventually receive everything I’ve been asking for because that’s what faith does, it turns everything around.
1,87012415 December, 2018
Do me a favor and know when to end things.
When it causes you more pain than joy, end it.
When it makes you feel like you’re not good enough, end it.
When it doesn’t make you proud of who you are, end it.
When you know this is not what you deserve, end it.
Have the courage to end what doesn’t serve you well.
Have the courage to end anything that manipulates you into someone you’re not.
Have the kind of faith that gives you the power to believe that something better is on its way to you even if you can’t see it yet.
Muster the courage to walk away even if staying is more comfortable. Even if staying is all you really want to do.
Because as much as ending things that we’re attached to is difficult, sometimes holding on to them is toxic. It’s toxic to try and fix something that’s already broken. It’s toxic to try and change someone who wants to remain the same. It’s toxic to drain yourself out of love when you’re not getting what you truly desire out of it.
We don’t have to mourn all endings. Some endings may be hard to swallow at first but when you look past the pain, you see the wisdom and the lessons behind them, the new opportunities they brought you and the new person they shaped you into. When you look past the pain, you will find that endings can be celebrated too.
So do me a favor and know when to end things because nothing is worse than knowing you deserve more, knowing you can get a lot more than what you’re getting but you’re choosing to settle instead. Nothing is worse than being with someone who challenges everything you believe about love.
So do me a favor and know when to end things, especially if they make you love yourself a little less.
Do me a favor and choose to end things that don’t make you a better person. Do me a favor and choose yourself.
2,381775 December, 2018
2018, I’m ready.
I’m ready to let you go. I’m so ready to let you go. You weren’t the easiest or the happiest and I’m ready to say goodbye to everything you’ve brought. I’m ready to let go of the parts of you that disappointed me, the people who let me down, the moments that I couldn’t hold myself together and the times when I almost gave up on myself.
You taught me that nothing is ever predictable, especially people. You taught me that family could easily diminish your value in a moment of anger, friends could replace you when they find their significant other, people can lie to your heart and break it just to mend theirs, but most of all you taught me how to stand alone. You proved to me that the only person I can control is me and the only person I can really count on is also me. You taught me not to get too attached to people or trust too much or love too much. You taught me that I have to always guard myself even from the closest people to my heart. But….. I forgive you.
I forgive you for all the pain, the betrayal, the unpleasant surprises, and the confusion. I forgive you for the countless nights you made me sleep with tears in my eyes. I forgive you for making the happy times short-lived. Maybe as much as I want to forget you, you will be the year I look back on to avoid future disasters or think twice before getting close to someone again or maybe you’ll be the year that brought me closer to myself and that will make all the difference. However…
I’m going to get over you.
I’m already healing from your wounds. I’m done living in your sob story. I’m done being your victim. I’m done letting you take so much space and energy. I’m done dwelling on all the things I didn’t do and all the dreams you didn’t let me live. I’m done trying to make everything happen before you end.
You weren’t the year for me and it’s time to move on. It’s time to let you go.
I don’t know what to expect, I don’t know if you’ll be better or worse, but I know that I’m ready for you. I’m ready to write a new story on your empty pages. I can only hope that this time it’s a happy one. I can only hope that this time, you are the year for me.
1,8507629 November, 2018
Today, I'm writing to thank you all. Thank you for this milestone. Thank you for reading my words. Thank you for giving my life meaning. Thank you for taking my writing journey to a whole new level. 3 years ago, I was just a girl with a dream, I always wanted to write but I was scared of how people will react to it, I was afraid of exposing myself and I was worried my writing days will only be limited to my diaries and my laptop, then I realized that all of this didn't matter when I started connecting with you, reading your stories and sharing my life with you. It all made sense. The fears subsided. The worries dissipated and I became a fearless writer because of you. I am proud of what I accomplished but the real credit goes to you. You all contributed to changing my life and making my dreams come true and I can only be grateful for your support, your love, your strength and your vulnerability. I wouldn't be the writer I am today if it weren't for you and for that, I'll always be grateful. You gave me a voice and filled me with happiness, joy, love and gratitude. Thank you. 100,000 times THANK YOU 💙🙏
5445419 November, 2018
Maybe we fear that the ones we love will fall in love with someone else; someone smarter, someone more attractive, someone with more common interests and there’s always the chance that this might happen but during these times you have to remember one very important thing:
There may be plenty of other women and men out there, but there’s only one you.
There’s only one you and that’s going to be enough for the right person. Whether that person stays or leaves and comes back, all you have to do is believe that while there may be other temptations and other people capturing their attention, there’s only one person who could capture their heart. There’s only one person who will be able to move them in a way no one else has. You have to trust yourself and have enough confidence in who you are and the way you love.
No one talks the way you do. No one listens the way you do. No one has your quirks and your characteristics. No one has your sense of humor or your honesty. No one has your strength or your vulnerability. No one has your story. No one can make them feel the way you do.
And I hope you realize that just because someone didn’t choose you doesn’t make you any less valuable or attractive. It just makes you a better fit for someone else. It makes you more available to someone who is looking for the kind of love you can give.
And to find that person you have to believe that you are incredible. That you are great. That you are enough. You have to believe that the right person may meet and get to know a bunch of other people more ‘intimidating’ but at the end of the day, they’ll choose you. They’ll pick you because you’re their special someone. They’ll choose you because there’s only one you and to them, you are their world.
1,3574512 November, 2018
I can’t wait for the day when life finally makes sense, when we find the silver lining in every tragedy, when we learn the lesson from each mistake and when we understand why our hearts needed to get broken a few times to let love in.
I can’t wait for the day that we understand why we met the right people at the wrong time or the wrong people at the right time and why our lives didn’t align to bring us together.
I wonder if it’s because they’re the wrong ones for us or because we still have a lot of growing up to do and we’re meant to be with someone who understands who we’re becoming not who we were.
I can’t wait for the day that we understand the lesson behind every struggle. Why we struggled to be successful, why we struggled to find love, why we struggled to reach our dreams and why we lost people who meant the world to us. I wonder if we needed these lessons to learn how to appreciate life and feel the pain of others or we just needed to learn that there is no living without suffering.
I can’t wait for the day that we understand why we had to hate ourselves to love ourselves, why we had to destroy ourselves to build ourselves up again and why we had to start over just before we got to the finish line. I wonder who saved us or who inspired us to save ourselves.
I wonder if we are meant to be reborn a few times so we can learn how to truly live. I want to know what triggered us to change and how we can no longer recognize who we used to be.
I can’t wait for the day that life makes sense – some days I understand why certain things happened and others I’m not so sure, but all I know is that somehow we’ll connect the dots and someday we’ll complete the puzzle, until then, we have to learn how to live our lives without trying to understand it and we have to learn how to be comfortable with the irony and uncertainty of life; otherwise we’ll lose our common sense trying to make sense of the life we’re living. ******************************************************Throwback to the day @paulocoelho shared my words on his blog and page! Definitely one of the biggest highlights of my writing career ☺️☺️🙏🙏