Just finished applying to get back the big stage when it returns to Fresno in May.
As I was filling out the application, I got caught up reliving this moment and how distracted and mentally exhausted I was. For three months, prior to this event, I wasn't motivated to do anything, not even driven to build my brand @rheoapparel. I wasn't even training like used to, partly because of a neck injury but mostly because I wasn't feeling it.
I stayed to myself and tried everything I could do on my own to reignite the flame I once had but I couldn't. That's when I reached out to the Lord and asked for help, because I knew this was beyond me.
A couple days go by, still no flame, no motivation.
Then my Professor messages me and encourages me to apply for the big show coming up...I didn't want to but did out of respect. Plus I never back down from a challenge 😉. I honestly hoped I didn't get selected cause 1) I hadn't been training, and 2) I had no motivation.
I then got the email that confirms my fight at the show. "Oh great" 😒 still no motivation. In fact, I'm hoping something happens so I don't have to fight.
Fast forward to the day of the event, I am backstage, warming up, the crowd was hype, the energy was through the roof, standing room only and still not feeling it. Im watching my teammates put in work on stage and cheering them. I started to pray and talk to the Lord about this. One of the organizers told me, "you're up in 5 mins". I prayed somemore.
It wasn't until the announcer called my name, my walk out song came on, and I stepped foot on that stage in front of a packed house, my opponent standing across from, thats when I snapped out of it and felt alive. Everything happened so quickly, i fought a good battle, lost by triangle, was disappointed in myself for a minute and walked off the stage. Once I shook off the disappointment, I realized I am feeling it again, my mind was clear...I'm motivated, I was back!
So I have the Good Lord to thank for putting me where He knew I would let go and focus on the good. Ever since I've been grateful and attracting positivity in my life.
Hopefully I get a chance back on that stage and have a better performance.