Chinese Nationalist troops on a practise march in 1944. Note the German Stahlhelm helmets they wear. Germany sold arms and gear to the Chinese Nationalists for use in their war against the Chinese Communists. These arms would later end up being used against Germany’s ally Japan during the Second Sino-Japanese War.
I chose this verses to kinda explain my non-exemplary behavior at times, that I personally hate! At least in a way!!!.... sigh!... • “At least in a way” because in another way, it’s almost as if I was just releasing all my limitators and just reacting to life with my full flesh at it’s best (which I know to be really evil!).... •
# that eternal fight inside of ourselves, WITH Ourselves!!!! Sigh!!!.... maybe the hardest one that we’ll ever face!... sigh!..... •
Having chosen these verses kinda helps me, by reminding me that even Paul went through such a fight and actually lost it at times!... sigh!.... it still doesn’t necessarily help me to actually win my battles!.... but it at least gives me room to accept myself even with all of my faults!..... • “Too much of anything is too much”, that’s what my mom use to say to us at home..... sigh!... and for some people the way I see life and try to live it, can fall into a “too much this or that”.... sigh!.... •
I’m SURELY not perfect!!!! But I’m trying to live according to what I believe to be God’s perfect will for my life!.... but oh how have I missed the target with that mission!.... sigh!..... •
But with all of these things being said!... I still thank God for his indescribable love and grace! That helps me to keep on trying to follow him!.... in this journey that I believe he has for me!... sigh!..... •
"N" is for normys beach babe o rama.
Normy's Beach Babe-O-Rama is a 1994 platforming game published by Electronic Arts for the Sega Mega Drive, released only in the US and Europe. It was produced as a tie-in to Keith Robinson's Making It comic strip.
I'll be posting some of my black spine, less talked about or posted games. Some of the "less sexy" or known titles.
I took down my Christmas tree today. Yes I'm fully aware that we are half way through February.
This is what mental illness looks like. The number of days I've told myself I'd take it down and then didn't have the mental or physical energy to do it. Taking photos and cropping it out due to embarrassment. I've never left it up this long.
Truth is I put it up reluctantly and did a half-assed job. I did it for my daughter. Had it not been for her I wouldn't have put it up. I love Christmas normally, but this year the magic was lost somewhere.
Last year was rough. This year has been rough so far as well but I'm taking steps towards recovery, at least from this bout. Depression is cyclical. It's never really gone for me, just a beast that lays dormant for a while, planning sneak attacks.
I'm taking some time for myself right now. Funny how we never question rest or putting life on pause to combat physical illness but when it comes to mental illness we tell ourselves that we can push through it and carry on with our day to day lives. Until we can't.
There's a light at the end of this dark tunnel. I've battled this beast before and I never lose. It's going to be ok.