one day it just clicks.
you're realize what's #important and what isn't. you learn to #careless about what other #people think of you and more about what you think of yourself. you #realize how far you've come and you remember when you thought things were such a mess that you would never #recover .
and then you smile.
you #smile becuz you are truly #proud of #yourself and the person you've fought to become and the person you’re still becoming. 🙌🏽💯
This is what I see when I’m high, when I’m drunk, and when I close my eyes, cuz this is where I wanna go, I don’t have to care up there, I can just relax and float away, I don’t have to please people, meet peoples standards, I don’t have to change for people, I don’t have to be some stupid fake unhappy bitch who’s too embarrassed and who doesn’t feel like they can share their feelings with their friends without seeming rude, selfish, stupid, immature and awkward, Its so hard for me to connect with people, I’m not a genuine person, when I look in the mirror i don’t know who i see, but I don’t see me, i am not a real person, I’m not real #space#lonely#careless#depression#hatemyself#hatethislife#imnotreal#high#drunk#stars#spaceaesthetic