I’m smiling in this photo. but not currently.
k friends. lemme get real with you for a minute. and I mean REALLY real.
I could cry right now. I’m overwhelmed, stressed out, and exhausted.
👉🏼I got 3 hours of sleep last night (trying to catch up on editing)
👉🏼I’ve spent the last 5+ hours on long, confusing, stressful phone calls with insurance companies + my bank.
👉🏼I have to sign up for a new business insurance policy TODAY because I just bought a ton of new gear + my old policy won’t cover it + I leave for Hawaii tomorrow. (I’m not about to travel + shoot for 5 weeks straight without insurance.)
👉🏼I haven’t even started packing. Or laundry. (Again... I leave TOMORROW. early.)
👉🏼I haven’t eaten in 11 hours.
👉🏼I’m really behind on editing. + this trip is about to pile tons more on my plate.
why the heck did I just drop all of that on you? because I wanna keep this crap real with you.
this is hard.
yes, I’m about to leave for almost 5 weeks in Hawaii. yes, I’m so excited + thankful. yes, it’s gonna be amazing.
but also... yes, this is a lot of responsibility. and it’s ALL on my shoulders. no, it’s not all sunshine + rainbows + frolicking around tropical islands without a care in the world. yes, I LOVE my job. but also YES, it can be just as draining, exhausting, and hard as any other. maybe even more so, because it’s ALL on me.
I think here’s the bottom line:
stop glamorizing other people’s lives. stop comparing your worst with their best. stop thinking “if only I had ___ like her, I’d be happy.” because that’s a load of hooey.
no matter how incredible life is... there will still be challenging moments, days, areas.
I’m just so thankful for a Father who’s walking through everything with me. holding my hand. leading me + loving me.
I hope this isn’t discouraging or heavy. I mean it from a raw, transparent heart. wanting to share the utterly low points as well as the high. please take it as encouragement: we all have those days, weeks, moments. but you can do this. you’re stronger than you think. stop comparing your life to everyone else’s + just buckle down, know your worth, + kick butt.
(k I have a LOT to do. love you, friends🖤)
🌲 Thankful I could take a little break and really enjoy my new baby boy ♥️ He is starting to settle in, so it’s time to ease back in to loving what I do 📸
1321014 November, 2018
alright, lemme give you some dirt. on myself. (yikes.)
I have a weakness. I recognize it, which is really good. but it’s still there.
if something really scares me, feels super hard/impossible, or just unreasonably difficult... I avoid it. I run. I hide. I procrastinate, put it off, pretend it doesn’t exist.
this can look anything like: needing new windshield wipers for my car, filing as a different LLC for my business, or avoiding taxes until the very last second.
it’s almost always little, stupid things. tasks that really aren’t that challenging if I just sit down and DO THEM.
but today, I knocked out 5 major items on my to-do list. all 5 of them were in the category of “hard/scary/confusing.”
and I did them. without any procrastination.
here’s the deal:
you can overcome your weaknesses. I’m still working on all of mine. (including that one.) but I’m making insane progress. (running your own business can kinda force you to grow some muscles in certain areas 🤦🏻♀️😂ya skip right over the kiddie pool + you’re shoved in the deep end without ya floaties 😬😳😂) don’t feel “stuck” if your personality bent isn’t naturally strong in a certain area. you CAN do this. whether that’s lacking organizational skills, or procrastination, or social anxiety... don’t ever give up. recognize a weakness, stare it straight in the eyes, and TAKE. IT. DOWN.
go kick some BUTT today, my friend. I believe in you more than I can say. 🖤
Well today I sprained my hand! 😭 seriously so happy it’s not broken 😊 because I have beautiful people to shoot and a baby to be had!! Thankfully it was right in my front yard 🙌🏼 I guess my 35 week prego clumsiness is really kickin’ in!
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the feeling in this moment.
just minutes after Jeremy knelt down on one knee and asked Helen to be his forever.
their full story is on the blog this evening, and you'll wanna read juuuust why i was surprised too.;)
such a special moment with such a special couple.🖤
only SIX months until these two say i do, and i have the honor of witnessing/documenting it (**cue ALLL the happy tears**)😭😍
go give their story a read on the blog (link in bio)!! xoxo
106819 February, 2019
can’t wait to photograph these two’s wedding in May!!! 💙💙