To the people who knows me well - and are pushing for my tears to fall 🤣:
Thank you for the empathy.
Yet, my story is no longer a scene for tears to foster and grieve over. I was once trapped in a lonely bubble and 4 years is no joke for isolation. But when my soul was struck by an unexpected love it was beautiful - a feeling I never knew I’d have. It went so fast - and ended desperately with an overwhelming pain in my heart. But I stopped asking the why: why did it happen? Why am I going through this? Why can’t we be? Rather I asked what: what is this teaching me? What will I be after this? What is best for him? And suddenly, the pain just went away - the dark clouds dismissed; the tears never fall again.
And so whenever I am reminded about it, I look back with a smile. A movie in my mind and all I remember were the giggles and exchange of laughters; the moments of joy and the learnings I got. Then the questions changed: why dwell on the ending if you can just focus on the happy journey? Why do people enjoy the pain if they can just be thankful for the person that onced knocked in their hearts? Why do we have to forget if we can just treasure the moments we felt inlove?
Hence, I move forward...because life goes on and so must I. No moving on, but just move forward. Besides, relationship requires two matured adults of the same interest to succeed - if it falls apart, its an uncontrollable decision and respect is all that you can offer to finalize the situation with peace and pride. For me, we don’t have to ruin someone’s life or our life just to get even with pain. Rather, be appreciative of today and stop the chase. You don’t create someone to be the perfect partner, accept them until you become the perfect couple. Love is everywhere - and who knows, a lost soul is also waiting for a struck and a new chapter of love may open in God’s perfect time. :) XXO #OpenLetter | #breakingthesilence | #movingforward | #singlegay | #mentalkb | #bravelove