So here it is... a more recent(kind of)/dramatic pre-HRT picture of me, back in 2015ish.
Back then I was still struggling with dysphoria, but at that time I was living in denial. I thought that if I just went to the gym and looked “jacked” things would’ve gotten better... it didn’t.
Transition wasn’t a choice I wanted, it was the solution to most of my problems.
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Growing up as a transgender person, it can sometimes be hard to look at yourself without feeling uncomfortable, ashamed, or discouraged. It’s a real mindf*ck to know in your heart who you are and how you should look while the mirror refuses to reflect it, especially once hormones kick in and things start changing. Even now, there are rare days I avoid looking into mirrors altogether, or if I have to, I avert my eyes from my “problem” areas.. I just can’t bear to look - If I do, all those negative thoughts and emotions come rushing back - your shoulders are too broad, your jaw is too wide, your chest is too flat, everybody knows you’re trans.. but that’s normal! There will be plenty of days before, during, and even after your transition that you’ll feel the pain and insecurity you’re all too familiar with, but always remember you are beautiful and unique, you are enough, and you will get past those negative feelings and tomorrow will be easier - push through. I’m happy to say 99% of the time when I look into a mirror now, I see ME - the me I’ve known was there all this time.
Yes, there will be lots of bathpics cuz soon I won't have a bathtub. Deal with it!
Right now my mind is feeling like an infinite abyss. One day it's all amazing, and the other day I can't sort a single thing out in my head. I guess I'm sort of just waiting for my "real life" to continue, like I'm stuck in an ever looping dream.
Despite all that the Gloucester County School Board has put him through, despite the nearly four years of legal challenge that no one should have to endure simply to be treated with dignity and respect, @gavingrimmva came back to urge all members of the school board to make the right decision and protect trans students. This is what courage looks like, and we're proud to stand with Gavin throughout this fight. .
Swipe 👉 to read his remark from yesterday's hearing.
📸: Jonathon Gruenke/Daily Press
Express your identity in the way you want to. Not in a way that society tells you to. They have no idea what you have gone through to get here or are still going through . Coming from someone who has struggled with her identity for a long time because I was scared of what people were going to think. I get it’s hard to do. But once you express it without a care in the world. It’s so peaceful. That’s why I encourage you all to embrace your identity.
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